Oh my god...I had two posts in mind just awhile ago, one especially composed with already nearly precise verbage. But they'll have to wait...they'll have to wait because I must be insane. Not to have noticed before what I just noticed. As I walked into the supermarket this evening, to buy some groceries, my shopping instincts went into autodrive as I began to notice Everybody, every single of hundreds of bodys, each and everyone distinctly dressed, commanding of time and place, and each with a uniquely unjudgeable face. I saw humanity, in entirety--but no ugliness. No one more or less beautiful than another. I merely saw souls shining through countenances, some more vibrant and energetic than others, yes, but none unworthy of my genuine amazement. And as I gazed childlike about, I noticed others' gazes occasionally catching mine with a matching fascination of genuine awakening. We were awakening! Not all of us, but synchronously, some. And it was as contagious as a yawn yet anything but. It has been a long time since I felt so connected outside as a stranger within such a mix of humanity. Insanity. For which I hope there is never a cure.
Day: March 27, 2002
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Looking at my SIR list, I decided to examine those who haven't published anything at all yet this year. Although it would be foolish to say that everyone in the list below is gone from Xanga for good, clearly and sadly, these are some who are.
Yet it may be a glad thing, too, for some to have moved on to other, better things. Some have undoubtedly just abandoned an old Xanga alias and assumed a new, fresh one. Others--who knows? We just can't assume that leaving Xanga is an unmitigated disaster! Maybe Xanga, for some, was merely therapy for their bout with hopelessness. And when hope arrived, Xanga properly departed. Perhaps, for some, Xanga just filled a period of ennui until true excitement appeared/reappeared in their lives. Who knows?!
Could be that one or two forgot their Xanga password and didn't bother to pursue it further. Could be that here or there someone was sentenced to blog as a form of public service for a misdemeanor of scribbling graffitti on the side of a railway car and that they have since paid their dues. Could be that at least one was abducted by aliens and that he/she is now blogging hyperdimensionally in the Extranet of another world?
Could be this...could be that...
But this, by love, is how they left:
hi all - am a little pressed for time, so at the risk of losing a limb, am disobeying my sister.
She wanted me to go to each weblog of the old friends and new here, and wish a thanks for all the good wishes.
I had taken a printout to her yesterday of all your comments, and she was mighty pleased.
Also she wanted to say, that she would be replying to mails later, when she can access the internet. Right now, despite my coercions, she refuses to hand me her passwords.
--Nash's bro
Tangerine (no indication—just left)
darcieee Wish someone would give me the gift of premium. I did the trial once and it was great. But being unemployed, I can't afford it myself! Bah!
PS Update: Wow, thanks Beckerbuns! I'm stunned! Okay so should I start putting pictures up again??
(Apparently, Beckerbuns gave her the gift if Premium and she never published thereafter! --notforprophet)
webbiegirl notfortheprophet!
I have 2 pictures to send you, but I need your e-mail adress. Can't send attachments in xanga-mail...
I'm waiting...
webbiegirl
(no indication—just left)
firedragonaf I'm back again. I'm hoping for good. So how are all my Xanganites??? Great???
pearoxide (no indication—just left)
PretzelChick Can you say stooooopid? Can you say PretzelChick is stooopid? I did the dumbest thing at work and got caught and repremaned for it in front of everyone. Embarassed to death was I but I blame myself.
Here is what I did, (stupid me) with out thinking I passed along an email....about a priest who got drunk in the pulpit and have a twisted sermon. I meant to pass it on to my buddies, but no......I hit the wrong button and whoosh...EVERYBODY GOT IT!!!!
elyse104 So I'm not going to help anyone anymore. I'm never going to talk to anyone, if all they do is read my comments and through them into the garbage.
Why should I care if they don't?
meltinghalo My new blog is at: http://www.geocities.com/meltinghalo I'm not stopping from writing, I'm just stopping Xanga. We'll just say that I outgrew it and am now moving on.
I am keeping my Sites I Read list because I still love you all and have to continue reading.
I suppose that's all.... Goodbye shitty Xanga.... Hello shiney new blog!
HeartShapedGirl (no indication—just left)
Rapture I have moved my journal activities to:
http://www.xanga.com/RaptureNYC
(But RaptureNYC also now left):
Farewell,
My Xanga friends.
I've been here a year now.
I've spent an eventful year online.
Farewell.
(Rapture was a best friend. –notforprophet)
chappygurl (newbie—left quickly)
animesque I have completely ignored Xanga for so long, I'm so very sorry.
miss_tori (auto forwards to the Xanga *bug* page)
disclaimer (all entries deleted or made private)
fading (no indication—just left)
BlackUnicorn Please email me if you want the URL to my new journal. Thanks!
(She was a powerful poet while here at Xanga. –notforprophet)
Erin_Go_Braless This is my farewell blog I finally love my husband. Too bad it is too late.
(site is blacked-out)
inhomeoutlet Hi! Thanks for coming by... I've moved! I have changed my name/space here at Xanga to IrishHeart...
Concetta (no indication—just left)
Shy test...
puppy BORING day today... lala!
CyberGoddess (all entries deleted or made private and whited-out)
wolfsource This weblog is now closed .. no new posts will be added.
Thumper12.com But Friday, Friday, Friday is my favourite, Friday is my favourite, Friday is my favourite DAYYY!!!
(Hart Smith died tragically in a fire the very night he wrote this –notforprophet)
Janey (no indication—just left)
RavenDestiny (all entries deleted or made private)
girlfriend (all entries deleted or made private)
foxytwin (newbie left quickly)
RedLunar (all entries deleted or made private)
brokenarrow Healing?
I have quit hoping or praying for healing. I have been fighting this monster for more than 10 years and it keeps getting stronger. All the prayers in the world are nice, but I know that I shall some day lose the war.
seldomseen To all those who subscribe here:
I will be back to write...just not as often as I was once was before.
Valkyr (a broken graphic remains the last entry )
mslady SNAFU? (no indication—just left)
lolalapala See ya'all later.
Deviant I am going on hiatus guys. I need to devote more time to other things, including myself.
babytiger (no indication—just left)
Ralf (all entries deleted or made private)
Number7 Okay, well, since I can't delete my subscription, the weblog will stay up. I doubt I'll update it ever though. See you around (not)!
Propaholics_Anon I'm not going to be posting anymore...indefinitely...possibly ever. I've had such a marv-E-props time propping the hell out of you all!!!!!!
Farewell *wav-E-props*
(site is blacked-out)
Riplee OK so I lied...but, I'm really back now.
Alison and I just decided. We're starting a band, dammit.
(site is blacked-out)
mermaidsandstone I have entered te world of Sluggy, and come out the other end ENLIGHTENED oh wait, i never did come out the other end because ther IS NONE. It s the NEVERENDING COMIC STRIP yay. If ever you hear me say I have no reason to get up tomorrow... u know what to do!
Leandra No matter how I calculate the things I want and need to do in the days to come, and the time available for doing them, I cannot squeeze Xanga participation into the equation if I want to feel ready to begin another school year.
shorttexasperson (all entries deleted or made private)
sapphirine I'm sorry guys. I have decided online diaries are a bad idea. For me, that is. You never know who else is reading.
Lil_Princess (newbie left quickly)
Rebel I am going camping this weekend! WOOHOO!!!
I will spend the weekend with a bunch of recovering druggies --- We do this every year. It is fun and Crazy and a little psychotic.
(Rebel was and will remain one of the zaniest Xangeroos ever. –notforprophet)
Jasmine (all entries deleted or made private)
Akatiez It's been a while since I've been here but fear not, I'm not gone.
NowhereGirl (all entries deleted or made private)
lynxie and those words would not equal the defening silence of today...
Broken_Doll This blog is virtually deserted, so methinks it's time to say bye-bye to Xanga and all of the non-existant people who left me non-existant comments.
midnitecoffee (all entries deleted or made private)
GodLike (no indication—just left)
turtleish Boredom. That's why I even got one of these weblogs...
Kymmie (newbie left quickly)
Wildheart .....I do have a little bit of a routine that keeps me in contact with the passage of time, but today the routine was forgotten and so it really didn't matter what day it was......
(a fiery soul, she died shortly thereafter of cancer –notforprophet)
LiviNg_DeAd_GiRl hope people could get to know me and me get to know you people out there.
so i guess thats all for now. bah bye
Mystic_Essence Hope my words inspire you too.
StandsWithaFist (all entries deleted or made private and whited-out) (She was a young friend who left Xanga to return to the real life that she felt Xanga was robbing her of. –notforprophet)
Lisa007 ok kids todays lesson is caffiene pills are BAD.
susanold (all entries deleted or made private)
azure_eyes The duality of my bisexual nature has always been fascinating to me.
patchouli_trip (no indication—just left-hehe)
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